Tommorow (July 25th) will be exactly 11 years since Stephanie departed from this world, but tonight is exactly 11 years since I made the choice to let go of trying to control that which was never in my control to begin with. I was at a large family gathering and something came over me that made me realize I had to let go. I went into a private room and said a prayer that Stephanie would be free from hurting in any way. I knew this probably meant I would lose her, but I felt she was waiting for me to let go. Very early the next morning, she passed away.
Whether or not she was waiting for me, I'll never know for sure, but making the choice to let go has carried me through the past 11 years. I was, of course, sad and afraid of how I would go on without her, but I was and am at peace with letting her go.
The thing is, though, even though I let go of her in one way, she has stayed with me in ways I never imagined she would. The question in this picture is from last summer's issue of Bella Grace that I never finished reading and I'm catching up on this summer. This happens to be the next writing prompt and it's a timely one. Stephanie is that person who has unexpectedly had a magical effect on my life. The solid friendship we had here on Earth has grown, even now, into something I can't even begin to explain. That's the best kind of friendship. The kind that can't be explained in words, only felt in the heart and soul.
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