Vision said it perfectly. I grieve for you because I still, and always will, love you.
It's been just over one week since you crossed Rainbow Bridge, my sweet girl. Especially since today is National Pet Day, I thought I'd take some time to recognize you and let you know how things are going for me since your departure.
It's been a tough week. I cried to the point of exhaustion the first two days. Since then, I've cried once or twice, but I think that's because I have no more tears left. I'm doing okay, as I've carried on with my life, but my heart aches for your every single second of every single day. I miss you like crazy. My friends and family miss you, too. I hope you know how much you are loved, even by people who never met you.
Stephanie taught me a lot about grieving, which has helped me since you've been gone. However, I must say, losing you is totally different. It isn't harder and it isn't easier. It's just different and equally as hard as it was when Stephanie first departed from this world. One huge difference is that you helped me through my grieving process when Stephanie passed.
I've definitely been experiencing the symptoms of grief. At one point, I even felt angry, asking myself, "Why did this have to happen?" I'm afraid to admit this, but I've even asked myself if I did enough for you. I know you would tell me that I did. I take comfort in that.
I know the reason it hurts so much is because of all the beautiful years we spent together. As time goes on, I want you to know I'll always honor the memories we made together and the bond we shared (and will always share). At some point in the near future, I hope to adopt another kitten or two. I know you would want this for me and for other kitties who need forever homes. I promise to keep your memory alive by talking to them about you, while still recognizing they too have a special place in my heart. I'll keep your portrait up on the wall in the bedroom where I can see you everyday when I wake up in the morning.
I trust you will lead me to the right kitties in the near future, just like you and I were led to each other. I'll never forget the first time we met. You were the only kitty I held before I knew you were the one. I just knew, and I believe you did, too. You did your signature stop, drop, and curl in my lap. I don't expect the next kitty or two I adopt to be exactly like you. I am not looking to replace you. That could never happen and I wouldn't want it to. But I can only hope the bond is equally strong, even if different.
Before adopting again, I do want to have the flooring changed. In a way, I will be sad to see it go, but I know this has to happen before more kitties reside here. There are so many options with flooring. I hope you will lead me in the right direction. You know what's best for cats, so I believe you can help.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'll be thinking about you. It won't be the same without you, but I'll remember all the happy times we shared together. There are so many!
Winnie the Pooh said, "If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart. I'll stay there forever."
My love for you will always persevere and I assure you, I will take Pooh's advice.
Always your cat mom,
Meezan
P.S. Thank you for the rainbows you've sent to me over the past two days. I know I will continue to notice your presence if I pay attention.
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